Thursday, March 31, 2011

How Do You Know?

Psssst....Over Here © 2011 Amy Hillenbrand
10 x 8  oil on board

"The best and most beautiful things cannot be seen or touched, they must be felt with the heart".- Helen Keller

Monday, March 21, 2011

Plaid or Paisley, What's Your Pattern?

Puddles © 2011 Amy Hillenbrand
8 x 8  oil on board
Oh, oh, oh....I had an Aha moment the other day. As I shared with you last time, I had decided it was time to start some art marketing and then I hit up against some big scary blockers. While those blockers may really exist in my sub-conscious, I also realized something else was going on.  This is so fascinating. We humans are so fun to observe, aren't we?  I was repeating a pattern that appears in my life each time I get ready to grow.
So here is the pattern. When I decide or commit to do something  my cute adorable gremlins (ego) start spouting off really clever words to create fear and prohibit my growth. My poor little ego sees my growth as a threat, it wants me to stay exactly where I am. When I engage in trying to resist my ego, I go to the wonderful place called 'stuckness', which shows up as procrastination. Do you know it?

I now see this is just part of my natural process. I even talk about this in the beginnings of this art blog when the goal was just to paint. So instead of judging it and making myself feel bad, I am going to celebrate because it is a sign that I'm in growth mode. Yeah!!! Pretty cool Aha.

What are your patterns?

Monday, March 14, 2011

Big, Hairy & Scary

Jelly Belly Giraffes © 2011 Amy Hillenbrand
10 x 8  oil on canvas
So I've had this little voice telling me I need to do more on the marketing front. I know, I know, I don't do as much as I could. How conveniently life gets in the way of that. Or does it?  I know and you know, when we really want to do something; we make it happen somehow, someway, right?
So you know me.  My next question is, why don't I do more. Not enough time, don't know how, it's too hard, I could do it tomorrow - excuses, excuses, excuses, right? I drill down and drill down some more, lo and behold, I came up with pay dirt. Fear...fear of what I ask? Fear of rejection, Yep this is the real reason for my lack of action in this area. I  feel quite naked sharing it with you guys. Rejection especially from someone deciding if my art, my creation, my self-expression is acceptable, worthy, cool and valuable enough for others to pay money for it. That's a pretty big hairy blocker isn't it?  Only if I let it be . And I think I have let it be big, hairy and scary for too long. OK, time to get past it. To be continued...