Side Stepping

10 x 10 Oil on Canvas

I've been taking this e-course called Together from Marisa  Haedike a wonderful artist.  The course's focus is about living  a creatively fulfilling life.  In the first couple weeks she asked to take a look at what we were tolerating in our lives. I'm glad she couldn't hear me because I gave out a big loud groan! when she suggested we look at this part of our lives.  As a Life Coach, this is homework I oftern give my clients, but felt very resistant (resistant doesn't quite describe it, poking hot daggers in my eyes felt easier).  This big resistance was because I knew right away what I had been tolerating. It was right there under the surface driving me crazy(oh I thought I was fooling myself by brushing it under the proverbial rug) and I didin't want that to be the "thing" I had to work on.  I had successfully side-stepped it for a couple years or should I say unsuccessfully?

So what were my big tolereations you ask, 1) the big black hole of my office filled with a zillion trillion papers each one needing me to make a decision 2) the very tight, jumbled, scary little room normally referred to as a closet, also with a million trillion items that need me to decide their fate.  See hot daggers sounds much easier doesn't it?  Well, today I tackled the black hole, whew! It's not done but I'm I have made tremendous progress.  It sure feels good.  Marisa's hypothesis is that when you free yourself up from the things you are tolerating you have opened up more room for creativity. You will have to stay tuned to find out if that part works.  Scary little room next...